Birthday

29.. Birthdays are about celebrating life, I think I will pass on celebrating mine right now.
Seems most other people did too..

Fundamentals

What is most important in your life?
Have you managed to reach your goals?
on a scale 1-100%, how happy are you?

I am 100% clear about my priorities. They are simple,
and boiled down to a few fundamentals. Problem is, I have
discovered that I will never reach a satisfactory score.

So, my question is, how do I remove some
of the most important priorities in my life and find something
to replace them with?And will I become a member of
the 100% club in doing so, or am I fooling myself? 

Basics

What are the basics? I believed in Love, knowledge, kids, health- the pursuit of happiness.
What happens when those legs get kicked out from under you?
I am travelling the road without those legs now. A sick involuntary experiment.
If this is the road less travelled i'd opt for the highway.

On boys

I seem to be a magnet on guys I have absolutely no interest in. We are talking
unbalanced misfits.
This raises a few questions:
a, Am I a unbalanced misfit myself - maybe I am in denial?
b, Should I start being rude to unbalanced misfits to not attract them?
c, Should I just ignore the fact that this keeps happening to me?
d, But what about the balanced normal ones?

Answer: d, When I find a somewhat balanced normal person I actually
like -(don't hold your breath, It occurs once or twice in life and will probably
never even happen again) he quickly head off in the other direction (see question a, )

So we have established the fact that normal balanced guys are not even
considered an option, but how do I keep off the misfit radars?

I think I need to go stealth...