Birthday

29.. Birthdays are about celebrating life, I think I will pass on celebrating mine right now.
Seems most other people did too..

Fundamentals

What is most important in your life?
Have you managed to reach your goals?
on a scale 1-100%, how happy are you?

I am 100% clear about my priorities. They are simple,
and boiled down to a few fundamentals. Problem is, I have
discovered that I will never reach a satisfactory score.

So, my question is, how do I remove some
of the most important priorities in my life and find something
to replace them with?And will I become a member of
the 100% club in doing so, or am I fooling myself? 

Basics

What are the basics? I believed in Love, knowledge, kids, health- the pursuit of happiness.
What happens when those legs get kicked out from under you?
I am travelling the road without those legs now. A sick involuntary experiment.
If this is the road less travelled i'd opt for the highway.

On boys

I seem to be a magnet on guys I have absolutely no interest in. We are talking
unbalanced misfits.
This raises a few questions:
a, Am I a unbalanced misfit myself - maybe I am in denial?
b, Should I start being rude to unbalanced misfits to not attract them?
c, Should I just ignore the fact that this keeps happening to me?
d, But what about the balanced normal ones?

Answer: d, When I find a somewhat balanced normal person I actually
like -(don't hold your breath, It occurs once or twice in life and will probably
never even happen again) he quickly head off in the other direction (see question a, )

So we have established the fact that normal balanced guys are not even
considered an option, but how do I keep off the misfit radars?

I think I need to go stealth...

Running away

Crazy is as I am. I need a change NOW. Running away seems like the perfect thing to do. There are many reasons but mostly I am running away from my self. The running takes me half way across the world, hopefully it is enough.

I will be closer to what I need to keep away from, but it does not matter as the distance there is unbearable and unreachable no matter how close or far I am physically.

I do these semi spontaneous stupid things, big things, big risks - I challenge myself.
There are ALWAYS backup plans, but the risks are there. They are justified by not having anything to loose. I hope I am not proven wrong.

Prolonging life

They say a good laugh prolongs life. It's probably true. A good laugh that
leave your stomach muscles hurting can make you smile for days. My stomach
muscles have not hurt like that for a long time. I need to find something that
triggers it, fake or not. My life is getting shorter by the minute

At Heart

by icingicicles

a hunter by trade
on vast open plains
no obstacles nor hurdels
a lost boy at heart

a hunter by trade
one menu to desire
no requite nor demands
a seeking man at heart

a hunter by trade
one chance to see truth
no limit nor lies
a peaceful soul at heart

a hunter by trade
one feast devoured
no regret nor regards
a gentle soul at heart

a hunter by trade
on plains still lost
no sight nor peace
a hunter at heart

On Love

The desire to give all you possess to one person whom in return will do the same- the balance is made when neither will let the other do so at the expence of personal worth or development.

Mental Adventures

I read blogs, not many, but a handful of blogs I have followed over
long periods of time. A few have stopped writing and I have found
a few new ones. I have discovered that I read blogs that contain people
doing something I wish to do or dream about doing. It is a way to feed
the need for mental adventures. Finding a good blog is like finding a
sitcom written with you in mind.

The other woman

I think I am developing a second personality. This new me does not speak up when she needs to. She is clingy and needy, she can not relax or wind down. She can not think a single intelligent thought and putting thoughts into words becomes insanely difficult. She is the opposite of me, yet she only emerges when he is around. Who is this other woman? Freud would have a field day.

The book I finished today

Ayn Rand: The Fountainhead

The book I finished today

Friedman, Thomas L.
The world is flat: A brief history of the 21st century

Bookworm

Right now reading is it! I listen to a lot of audio books as it gives the option to multitask or just relax. My reading paper or audio comes in ebbs and flows. I might have one two or three periods in a year like this where I devour books and then don't read a thing until the next feast. It is a good thing since putting down a book can be hard for me. If you read the books I have read lately there are not many days in between picking it up and finishing it. As I have alot of time right now the reading can go on for a full workday, everyday.

The book I finished today

Lewitt & Dubner: Freakonomics

The book I finished today

Jon Stewart: America

The book I finished today

Joly, Eva: Corruption Hunter/Korrupsjonsjeger

The book I finished today

Eide, Harald : Etter gull i Alaska/
The Alaska Adventures of a Norwegian Cheechako

The book I finished today

Nærum, Knut : Norsk litteraturhistorie fritt etter hukommelsen

The book I finished today

Hærland, Anne-Kat. : Krig og fred og religion og politikk og sånn
War and peace and religion and politics and stuff.

The book I finished today

John Steinbeck: The grapes of wrath

Love

I am in deep shit. Just marvolous shit. Shit.

Adventure

Going away on an adventure for a few days. Leaving on a jetplane trying out the Torino Olympics for size.
What will become of this crazy trip on a whim.

Imagination

When I was a child and a teenager I wrote whole books in my head.
I could work on them every day for months. It was a way of daydreaming.
I got good at it and had several long stories going on at once.My busy
mind got me in trouble at school sometimes until I learned how to control
my timing better.

My imagination was always well developed and as an adult I use it to
quickly find good solutions and new angels to problems. I am good at it,
I have practised all my life. I still escape and write short stories but it is
not the same as when you are a kid.

I wish I had written down those early stories. 

Trying out the Email feature on blogger

This means I can post from anywhere!

Icicle

An icicle is a spike of ice formed when water dripping or falling from another object freezes.
-Wikipedia

Ice ice baby

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