Birthday

29.. Birthdays are about celebrating life, I think I will pass on celebrating mine right now.
Seems most other people did too..

Fundamentals

What is most important in your life?
Have you managed to reach your goals?
on a scale 1-100%, how happy are you?

I am 100% clear about my priorities. They are simple,
and boiled down to a few fundamentals. Problem is, I have
discovered that I will never reach a satisfactory score.

So, my question is, how do I remove some
of the most important priorities in my life and find something
to replace them with?And will I become a member of
the 100% club in doing so, or am I fooling myself? 

Basics

What are the basics? I believed in Love, knowledge, kids, health- the pursuit of happiness.
What happens when those legs get kicked out from under you?
I am travelling the road without those legs now. A sick involuntary experiment.
If this is the road less travelled i'd opt for the highway.

On boys

I seem to be a magnet on guys I have absolutely no interest in. We are talking
unbalanced misfits.
This raises a few questions:
a, Am I a unbalanced misfit myself - maybe I am in denial?
b, Should I start being rude to unbalanced misfits to not attract them?
c, Should I just ignore the fact that this keeps happening to me?
d, But what about the balanced normal ones?

Answer: d, When I find a somewhat balanced normal person I actually
like -(don't hold your breath, It occurs once or twice in life and will probably
never even happen again) he quickly head off in the other direction (see question a, )

So we have established the fact that normal balanced guys are not even
considered an option, but how do I keep off the misfit radars?

I think I need to go stealth...

Running away

Crazy is as I am. I need a change NOW. Running away seems like the perfect thing to do. There are many reasons but mostly I am running away from my self. The running takes me half way across the world, hopefully it is enough.

I will be closer to what I need to keep away from, but it does not matter as the distance there is unbearable and unreachable no matter how close or far I am physically.

I do these semi spontaneous stupid things, big things, big risks - I challenge myself.
There are ALWAYS backup plans, but the risks are there. They are justified by not having anything to loose. I hope I am not proven wrong.

Prolonging life

They say a good laugh prolongs life. It's probably true. A good laugh that
leave your stomach muscles hurting can make you smile for days. My stomach
muscles have not hurt like that for a long time. I need to find something that
triggers it, fake or not. My life is getting shorter by the minute

At Heart

by icingicicles

a hunter by trade
on vast open plains
no obstacles nor hurdels
a lost boy at heart

a hunter by trade
one menu to desire
no requite nor demands
a seeking man at heart

a hunter by trade
one chance to see truth
no limit nor lies
a peaceful soul at heart

a hunter by trade
one feast devoured
no regret nor regards
a gentle soul at heart

a hunter by trade
on plains still lost
no sight nor peace
a hunter at heart